Monday, December 19, 2011

SUPER 8 the movie

The movie Super 8, based on many different ideas and philosophies is an amazing movie.
It has great scenes and is very realistic but also great for people with an imagination!

Friday, December 16, 2011

Ballet and jazz or gymnastics?

I have done gymnastics almost my whole life and I go there every week.
I was offered a position to be a dance teacher.
The habits of choosing or should I do both?

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Governments are MEAN

Obama and his heath care plan really drives me UP the wall! I mean those of us who CAN afford insurance are stuck doing what?? Paying for those who CANNOT! I do not like this at all. At all... At all.....

Now for some calming music to enjoy;)

This is a very calming song that I enjoy alot:) I hope you like it!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

In society Everything Changes

People tend to change based on their environment and the things related to them.
You can be a gang member but still have the heart for animals but if society knew that you liked them as a gang member, you would be ridiculed. It is the fact that most people hide who they truly are because they are afraid of rejection and everything that could happen. You hide certain parts of yourself for fear of being hated.
If everyone in the world were completely open about everything in their lives, there would be a lot less hate and a lot less rejection in society.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Not blogging in a long time

Has made me realize that I should start blogging again:) It also made me realize that I have been highly interested in weight loss...weight loss....weight loss...
I now have a full time job and I am going to be going to college to become a doctor or a psychologist, I am not quite sure which I will choose. Hmm... maybe I should double major.
Well, this is just a small post to say I am back to Blogger to blog away:)

More posts and things will come soon. mostly about random life rants, but who knows maybe I will throw something crazy at you guys:)

Until next time, Have a safe and wonderful week!

Monday, August 1, 2011

Life back on track..R.I.P...

Well my life is back on track for the most part.
It looks like I know which college I am going to be attending and I know what major I am going to get.

This is going to be my first post without pictures or videos..It is a post to honor my very good friend Alex Bossman who passed away yesterday morning at 4A.M. May God be with him, and may he rest in peace!

Monday, July 25, 2011

I am not sure how to

describe what I am feeling. I am so so so happy all the time no a days and I just feel like what I am doing in life is such a good idea.
Life is not perfect though, because I still need to decide on attending an expensive college, and I also need to decide on what kind of car I would like to get. Moving out is another thing and working two jobs just will hit the spot. Overall, my life has been pretty great,and spending the Summer with friends and my best friend has helped out a lot:) Life is good.
Truth about me is that I LOVE the sunshine but I HATE the snow!

Friday, July 22, 2011

I got my license:)

I now have my license and I am legal to drive:)

YES I am so happy!

On the hunt for a new or used car that is good on mileage and safety. What do you guys recommend?

Thursday, July 14, 2011

As these days turn to weeks, It seems unusual....

That I am on a schedule. It sucks, it is supposed to be my Summer to have a load of fun and have fun but it kind of fails. Now, I do have fun being on schedules, but sometimes, I wonder if it would be easier just going with the flow.
Rucka Rucka Ali.. Very good artist, as saying, some of the songs are very funny while others are quite cruel, but regardless it is still good music in my opinion.
Drinking has become a part of my life, not like addiction or anything, just the nightly buzz. It is a pretty good feeling to not be stoned drunk, but to just be getting there.

This picture has a lot of meanings. It could be to resemble love, friendship, or the bonds that people close to each other share. Regalrdless of what it means, I do enjoy this picture a lot, as I also enjoy animals.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Diary of the Dead Review!

This is a pretty good movie. I am about half way through it, and for it having been made a few years back, it has been pretty good. Does anyone know any other movies based on the zombie apoloclypse or on anything dealing with the end of the world?? I love those kinds of movies:)

If you have never heard of this movie, then you should check out this link for it at IMDB and tell me what you think of it.Click here for a summary of Diary of the Dead

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Immature People

Immature people are everywhere. Most of them are idiots who have yet to realize that they are wasted space in the real world. The reason I say this is because everywhere you turn, you see them.
People post on peoples blogs all the time "annonymously." It is so immature and ridiculous.

On the side note, I will continue to blog about what I WANT TO BLOG ABOUT and if you have an issue then you are kindly asked to get off my blog!
In other words, I say what I want, if you have a problem then why are you still reading:)
Deciding what my next blog post should be about, does anyone have any ideas?

Friday, July 1, 2011

Well I am stressed

1) I have a boyfriend and we are doing very good:) His name is Dustin.Today is our one week:)
2) i have to get my health together. I am on vicodin 24/7 and can barely function much outside the house. I am always in some type of pain.
3)I need a job.I have had job offers and such that I should start thinking about.
4) I need to start training for races, but until my health improves, I am out of luck for that.
5)I am giving up pop 100%. My best friend started that a week ago. I went two years without it, and it is time for me to give it up again. My boyfriend is also going to do it with me.
6)I now like Egypt Central.White Rabbit:)
So in all honesty, I do not know why I am so stressed out. I still have not found out for sure what they are going to do about my health and if surgery is required. Or maybe it is the fact that I do not know if I want to do online college, or go to Notre Dame/Holy Cross, or if I want to just go to a cheaper university. it is so much to think about that it is driving me insane.Well that is it for my post for the day. Thank you for listening.

Monday, June 27, 2011


I have been very very busy the past few days.
I have a boyfriend:) His name is Dustin.His EX is mad over him, so it is a bit ridiculous but it is okay:)
Today I go to the hospital place for my tests and such, hmm,I wonder how it will go.
I have been really into suicidal and emo music lately. more modern stuff. DO you guys know any?
Also, how does bad teacher sound to you guys?? reviews?
Thats for the music I LOVE <3

Have you seen this movie? Is it any good?

Thursday, June 23, 2011

It Boy to suicide thoughts unraveled??

Yea that's right your just the IT BOY:) Yes, the best band ever:) Miss Hollywood?? Shall we say yes. Check them out. Vans warp tour is coming right around the corner, and only you could guess that super grand bands would be there. At least they are grand to me.
The other one is a suicide song.  Jamestown story is their new band name but I saw this song a few nights ago, and I truely enoyed it.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Viva Las Vegas-TO live in the valleys;)

I had such a blast in Vegas!This is called the stratoshpere Instanity ride. I rode it:) Super fun 1000 feet in the air.
I stayed at this hotel. it is called the orleans. had 3 pools including a massage hot tub:)
I have a lot of memories here this time with one of my best friends Monica, and I hope to have more:)
We are going back the first week in November:)

Thursday, June 9, 2011


I am going to be graduating this Sunday:) I am so excited, but I have a lot of things that I have to get done and get caught up on.
I am also learning how to drive and am on the mission to find the perfect car fit for me:)
I also am leaving for Vegas in two days. I am so happy life is amazing right about now:)

What should I blog about next? Only I can decide;)

Monday, June 6, 2011

New Meds Suck

Today, I would like to take this opportunitie to rant. You see, they put me on these new meds to help with my ovarie disease and they put me on double dosage because my asthma is bad! So the side affects SUCK!


It truely is terrible:/

It is a life-saver let me tell you

I think for my next blog entry, I will 

tell you guys about a diary entry I wrote. What do you think?

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Life is good:)

Life has been very nice lately. There has been a lot of drama. and a lot of smoking involved, but other then that it has been good.


On the other note, I have been liking country lately....the music some of it is not too bad. Mostly if it deals with death and dying, I am okay with it:)

Check it out;) Heaven was needing a hero like you!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Life has been very busy

I have been very busy with everything that I have been doing lately.
Quick facts for the day

1) I am currently listening to T.Mills
2)I am leaving for Vegas in 2.5 weeks
3)Today is the first day I will be seeing a psychologist.I am nervous
4)Senior skip day was yesterday and we had an amazing time:)
5)I love people so much
6)I tan very quickly. I go from ghostly white to mexican dark quickly!

Saturday, May 21, 2011


Yesterday was prom:) This is similar to what my dress looked like:)

I ended up going with friends. We went to Hacienda for dinner and had a good time. I ended up hooking up with a guy there and I knew everyone there, so we all had a blast and just danced out lives away for the night.
Then came the after party bon-fire. Then came the alcohol(southern alcohol) burns like a bitch! :)

Thursday, May 19, 2011

2 Embarassing stories of my Life!

It all started at 4:45 in the morning, when I decided to go and work out at the gym. As I was coming back from the gym at about 5:45 I realized that I forgot my hotel room key. So, this meant that I would have to knock on the door to get let in to my room. So I went and kept knocking
And I kept knocking and knocking, but no one would answer the door. Finally someone answered the door. A weird man, who was very tired and angry looking. I looked at him and said Oh wait this is not MY hotel room and walked off. I went to 117...,my room was 107

This with a grumpy face was how he reacted.

My other story was a little less funny. I was with my friend Rebecca, and we were going to the cigarette store, so that I could go ahead and cash in my lottery ticket that I won. It was worth 20.00. Well, I got there and the lady goes hunny this is not a lottery ticket, I go what do you mean, and she goes you did  not even scratch off the winning numbers. I was so
My ripped 20.00 bill that I will never see

Monday, May 16, 2011

I really hope that this will not be a mistake...

By asking for help and doing whatever I can to get help!
But thats not the point
The point isss.....


and I am typing this in school,therefore No pictures can be shown on this...

SOOO, I was just wondering, what would YOU
my fellow bloggers like me to to blog about??? Anything creative or adventureous, or do you have any dares for me?

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Old Habits:(

My old habits are back:(
I got to read my life story yesterday about all the child abuse that I have faced and everything I have gone through.
I realize I have come so far, but ANOREXIA IS BACK and stronger then ever.
I am going Monday and telling the counselor I need a professionals help, because I do.

The fact that I am many other people see this as beautiful, slightly disturbs me, but makes me strive more and more.
Lost 6 pounds in the past 5 days. Amost 7 pounds, and I still will not eat:(
Such a bother, oh bother

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Random thoughts in my head

1) I had an amazing day. One of the best days I have had in a long time. I spent it with my family and did a lot of things with them. I got some amazing pictures of the zoo animals:)

2) I am trying to think of a way to deal with this pain. I have polycystic ovarian disease and it is flaring up. It hurts so much, but I need to.

3) I love family guy. It is such a good show and it is wonderful:)

The new episode that was on right now was not very good to be honest;/

4) I am graduating very soon and I am very excited. I know what I am doing for my whoe Summer, and I also know what I am going to do for college and graduating from there.

5) I think I love money more then I should, but who doesn;t?

Saturday, May 7, 2011


The first step is to

Then it is
I have an addiction:( I am addicted to potatoe chips and I am addicted to french fries. It is bad. I am skinny...very...but that does not mean it is healthy. I need to stop eating them...stop completely...eating I mean.. No, starving is not good,but either are chips.:( oh man oh man oh man

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

stressed:( and stressed

Today is wednesday, the first day of my IB testing which is for the smartest kids in the world who are juniors and seniors in high school. I do NOT want to be taking it. I have to though. I do not talk to a lot of those people and it seems like a waste of time for me.
On top of that, I have been so so so dizzy I do not know why. I had my blood tested on Monday...we will soon find out the results. I am more then optimistic about it being positive, however I also have to remember that if it is not I will have to learn to deal. I think it will be perfect:)
click here to learn what might try to kill me that link shows what they think it is. with the kidneys going away from me.
I am just so tired but at the same time I am not. I also keep thinking about this whole sleep thing. I feel like being an athlete, I need more then six hours of sleep, but if only sleeping six will cause me to live longer then that is what I THINK i want to do...not too sure though.

Monday, May 2, 2011


You see, I am sitting here, deciding if immortality exists?

I believe that it is indeed possible to live forever. You need the money and the stress free life and you need to be optimistic and have overall good health, but I believe that you can live forever.


Yes, you notice that I included sleep in this factor? You see, they have studies that show that under 5.5 hours and more the 8.5 hours is bad so 6-8 hours is needed, but 6-7 is ideal, but others such as athletes and people with hypersomnia need more. So it also varies depending on the individual.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Running for life!

I will be a runner for life. I love to run so much!
I came in 346 of over 2000 people. It was only a 5K or 3.1 miles, but it was a bit of a challenge.
I have to start biting it in the butt, my asthma I mean.

Ive got all I need.
But if the end is so much better, why dont we just live forever.?

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Pandora? Susan G. Komen

I love pandora music.
I type in my favorite artist which is shinedown and tons of music plays
Some I have never heard before
It plays only music you like:) I love it:)

On the side note I have a 5K race this saturday.. it is for brest cancer. I am a little nervous. Please root for me:)

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Chicks in diapers?

So, I came across a random lifestyle online yesterday. It is called infantalism. Men and women both can have it.
They often engage in using and wearing diapers. They also may suck pacifiers and completely regress and use anything that a normal baby would use. Some follow this lifestyle 24/7

a picture of as perfectly happy adult women who is in a crib wearing a diaper and being a baby

I mean come on now they even have onesies for these adults.
Some of them could be doctors or lawyers and be perfectly fine and social while others act as babies 24/7 and do not have a good liftstyle.
Others follow this style with someone who they consider their daddy while others keep it hidden because they are afriad of what others will think.
Others wear and use their diapers so often that it is normal for them to do so.
Remember, people who do this are  not always crazy or ugly. maybe they had a bad life. Maybe they want to be a child again. Maybe they find diapers comfy. Maybe they feel secure. Maybe they just are lazy.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Healthy Living related to living longer?

1. Becoming more educated!
The number of exams and how you will live are linked. Jobs requiring more education often have less of a chance of becoming injured.

2.Be nice to people! Most people who actively help others, even if just once a year can be up to 60% more likely to outlive selfish people.

3.Live in a nice neighborhood!!
Poor areas have twice as many health problem.

4.Get enough sunlight
Lack of D increases risk for diabetes and depression.
Aim to get at least 10 minutes of sunlight every day minimum.MINIMUM!

5. Walk Daily
30 Minutes of brisk walking every day helps

6.Keep body mass index at a healthy level
 Healthy weight and BMI should be between 25-30. Find out hour BMI here

7.Get 8 Hours of sleep
6-7 hours of sleep is recommended every night with 8 hours at most.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Pirates of the caribbean?

Do you want to see the 4th one?
If so, why?
It looks amazing! Kiera Knightly is an AMAZING actress!
So skinny so wonderful!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

new music yesyes:)

I am addicted. I have an addiction problem. To these 3 songs!
SMH im ADDICTED! thoughts or comments?

Friday, April 8, 2011

Random Music and my As artists?

I mostly listen to emo and rock music. A long with that it must be something of modern. No, screaming music is not for my soul. I enjoy a lot of things. On my ipod my A artists are
-The academy is
-Adam Lambert
-All Time Low
-Amber Pacific
-Ana Johnsson
-Ashley Tisdale
-Attack Attack!
-Avril Lavigne

As you can see I listen to a variety of items. Do you guys have any recommendations for me?

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Cold French Fries or Is it just me?

The evolution of the unhealthy greasy salty fried french frie?
Why oh why is it so delicious?
I absolutely adore them when they are warm or cold.
I must blame the potato for this!
Do you like potato? or is it just me whom is addicted to their fine glory?

Thursday, March 31, 2011

The month to live again?

April..tomorrow is April 1st..yes April 1st.
looking back on the past few months. I have no clue why I am blogging about all of this. Maybe to get it off my chest. Maybe because I am not sure if anyone will read if, so it is almost like a diary of mine. Yes a diary. 2 weeks ago sitting on the of the bathroom area, pill bottle in my hand and razor to my wrist. Ready to say good bye to the world and everything in it. There was only one problem. This problem was that I wanted to live, and I love everything I have in life. SO why? why the brink of death??
I myself, cannot,fully answer this question, but what I can say is that I have come a very long way from anorexia,bulimia, self-harm,suicidal tendencies, several health problems, and being adopted because I was unloved as a baby.I have come so far and I now know what I would like to do in life. Be a psychologist.
So April, April is the month to truely live again. TO be myself and be optimistic. To be me. and to free

SO music music, so little time for the best

There is a lot of new artists,that are coming out everyday with things. The only problem is if you are like me, you are very picky about what kind of music you will listen to. You will listen to all kinds, but when it comes down to it, you have to like both the voice and the lyrics to have a complete song.I like all kinds of music to be honest, like MGMT, Avril Lavigne, and so many other things. The only problem is, that sometimes, I will only like one song by an artist. I do not know about you guys, but good music is hard to come by, and the best music out there is the kind that actually tells a story.