Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Life is good:)

Life has been very nice lately. There has been a lot of drama. and a lot of smoking involved, but other then that it has been good.


On the other note, I have been liking country lately....the music some of it is not too bad. Mostly if it deals with death and dying, I am okay with it:)

Check it out;) Heaven was needing a hero like you!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Life has been very busy

I have been very busy with everything that I have been doing lately.
Quick facts for the day

1) I am currently listening to T.Mills
2)I am leaving for Vegas in 2.5 weeks
3)Today is the first day I will be seeing a psychologist.I am nervous
4)Senior skip day was yesterday and we had an amazing time:)
5)I love people so much
6)I tan very quickly. I go from ghostly white to mexican dark quickly!

Saturday, May 21, 2011


Yesterday was prom:) This is similar to what my dress looked like:)

I ended up going with friends. We went to Hacienda for dinner and had a good time. I ended up hooking up with a guy there and I knew everyone there, so we all had a blast and just danced out lives away for the night.
Then came the after party bon-fire. Then came the alcohol(southern alcohol) burns like a bitch! :)

Thursday, May 19, 2011

2 Embarassing stories of my Life!

It all started at 4:45 in the morning, when I decided to go and work out at the gym. As I was coming back from the gym at about 5:45 I realized that I forgot my hotel room key. So, this meant that I would have to knock on the door to get let in to my room. So I went and kept knocking
And I kept knocking and knocking, but no one would answer the door. Finally someone answered the door. A weird man, who was very tired and angry looking. I looked at him and said Oh wait this is not MY hotel room and walked off. I went to 117...,my room was 107

This with a grumpy face was how he reacted.

My other story was a little less funny. I was with my friend Rebecca, and we were going to the cigarette store, so that I could go ahead and cash in my lottery ticket that I won. It was worth 20.00. Well, I got there and the lady goes hunny this is not a lottery ticket, I go what do you mean, and she goes you did  not even scratch off the winning numbers. I was so embarassed.lol:)
My ripped 20.00 bill that I will never see

Monday, May 16, 2011

I really hope that this will not be a mistake...

By asking for help and doing whatever I can to get help!
But thats not the point
The point isss.....


and I am typing this in school,therefore No pictures can be shown on this...

SOOO, I was just wondering, what would YOU
my fellow bloggers like me to to blog about??? Anything creative or adventureous, or do you have any dares for me?

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Old Habits:(

My old habits are back:(
I got to read my life story yesterday about all the child abuse that I have faced and everything I have gone through.
I realize I have come so far, but ANOREXIA IS BACK and stronger then ever.
I am going Monday and telling the counselor I need a professionals help, because I do.

The fact that I am many other people see this as beautiful, slightly disturbs me, but makes me strive more and more.
Lost 6 pounds in the past 5 days. Amost 7 pounds, and I still will not eat:(
Such a bother, oh bother

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Random thoughts in my head

1) I had an amazing day. One of the best days I have had in a long time. I spent it with my family and did a lot of things with them. I got some amazing pictures of the zoo animals:)

2) I am trying to think of a way to deal with this pain. I have polycystic ovarian disease and it is flaring up. It hurts so much, but I need to.

3) I love family guy. It is such a good show and it is wonderful:)

The new episode that was on right now was not very good to be honest;/

4) I am graduating very soon and I am very excited. I know what I am doing for my whoe Summer, and I also know what I am going to do for college and graduating from there.

5) I think I love money more then I should, but who doesn;t?

Saturday, May 7, 2011


The first step is to

Then it is
I have an addiction:( I am addicted to potatoe chips and I am addicted to french fries. It is bad. I am skinny...very...but that does not mean it is healthy. I need to stop eating them...stop completely...eating I mean.. No, starving is not good,but either are chips.:( oh man oh man oh man

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

stressed:( and stressed

Today is wednesday, the first day of my IB testing which is for the smartest kids in the world who are juniors and seniors in high school. I do NOT want to be taking it. I have to though. I do not talk to a lot of those people and it seems like a waste of time for me.
On top of that, I have been so so so dizzy I do not know why. I had my blood tested on Monday...we will soon find out the results. I am more then optimistic about it being positive, however I also have to remember that if it is not I will have to learn to deal. I think it will be perfect:)
click here to learn what might try to kill me that link shows what they think it is. with the kidneys going away from me.
I am just so tired but at the same time I am not. I also keep thinking about this whole sleep thing. I feel like being an athlete, I need more then six hours of sleep, but if only sleeping six will cause me to live longer then that is what I THINK i want to do...not too sure though.

Monday, May 2, 2011


You see, I am sitting here, deciding if immortality exists?

I believe that it is indeed possible to live forever. You need the money and the stress free life and you need to be optimistic and have overall good health, but I believe that you can live forever.


Yes, you notice that I included sleep in this factor? You see, they have studies that show that under 5.5 hours and more the 8.5 hours is bad so 6-8 hours is needed, but 6-7 is ideal, but others such as athletes and people with hypersomnia need more. So it also varies depending on the individual.