Saturday, May 14, 2011

Old Habits:(

My old habits are back:(
I got to read my life story yesterday about all the child abuse that I have faced and everything I have gone through.
I realize I have come so far, but ANOREXIA IS BACK and stronger then ever.
I am going Monday and telling the counselor I need a professionals help, because I do.

The fact that I am many other people see this as beautiful, slightly disturbs me, but makes me strive more and more.
Lost 6 pounds in the past 5 days. Amost 7 pounds, and I still will not eat:(
Such a bother, oh bother

19 comments:

  1. please go eat :)

    and tell her, it is for the best

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  2. oh shit thats some serious issue, hope you get over it!

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  3. You can do it. Just trust yourself.

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  4. People see that as beautiful? How distorted.

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  5. Man that shoped picture is gross. Keep yourself together bro.

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  6. Even though when you talk to the counselor, it's within yourself that you need to find the willpower to make the change. There are drugs that can be prescribed too, I know that in states allowing medical marijuana it's prescribed for anorexia.

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  7. Getting real help is the best thing to do.

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  8. @cool_cicler, that isn't shopped. And it is indeed disgusting. Anyways, you need to find what caused you to fall back into old habits and correct it. You stated in previous posts you have been under a lot of stress from different stuff lately. Maybe thats whats causing it.

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  9. go get yourself a nice warm bottle of milk. its got all the nutrients u need, including fat and protein

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  10. if its lactose intolerance you can get milk that doesnt have lactose in it. they put in an enzyme called lactase that breaks it down into glucose galactose (i think)

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  11. I am both lactose intolerant and allergic to the milk itself. I cannot drink any kind of milk but i do drink soy sometimes.and i take 2 different kinds of pills for it but i still cant eat ice cream, milk, etc.

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  12. Smoke a bowl, eat delicious food. Not trying to sound disrespectful

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  13. good luck with the battle, it's a tough one, but you can do it!

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  14. Wow, well I couldn't imagine, I love food, I know it's a disease and I am not trying to make fun. I hope everything gets better for you, believe me when I say you would look better, with some meat on those bones.

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  15. Oh noes! I had some childhood abuse and mental issues thereafter. Doctors will tell you all kinda things and believing it is where they fuck you. It was real self-indulgent of me to think I could blame my issues on something else. I realized instead of being sad, I had to basically commit emotional terrorism on those that had wronged me. In the end, I blackmailed several members of my family and destroyed someone's marriage.

    They say revenge isn't nice, but I fucking ate that shit up. Maybe that's what you need. A nice big plate of IF YOU TOY WITH ME I'M GOING TO MURDER YOU. It works everytime, especially if you murder someone.

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  16. I had a friend who was anorectic, back then I didn't realize what a huge problem it was. I hope it all works out for you, Remember that "lagom" (google it) always is best :)

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